After I read the magazine article about me in Humans of Fuzia, the abuse I suffered and how it changed my life, a range of feelings washed over me. I had planned to stand up against what people thought about me, but I realize that my desire to stay out of the spotlight brings on a feeling of shame, embarrassment, and doubt. I think when we suffer abuse, hiding is a safer place to be than exposing ourselves to the condemnation of others. Questions about how could this happen to you or my favorite, what did you do to make him mad?
So for me stepping out opened the door for comments negative and positive. But it was not about what others have to say. It is me being open with genuine transparency about my abuse. It was and is about my transformational healing process. Therefore, no comments are necessary because I honestly can say it is all about ME. I want people to see me beyond my physical appearance, also include my attitude of how I see and experience my world.
I am ready to embrace the feeling of being exposed and free. A wave of blissful emotion overwhelms me, and it is an amazing sensation. Living a right relationship in my world.
So, if you have time to read my interview with Humans of Fuzia, the link is below. Human of Fuzia write about the everyday woman. Working with the team was an empowering experience, and the potential to be featured was exhilarating. I am honored to be presented with this opportunity.